Partying and having a good time. Going upstairs to a locked door and banging to get in only to see a circle of
aquantinces injecting fucking drugs into their arms/toes/ etc... afterwards witnessing one having a near overdose. well, lost a good friend. she was heading into a good place and got mixed up in drugs. now she's off living with her current meth/heroin daddy who pawns her off to suck dick for whatever drugs they can get. she's been MIA for a while and resurfaces every now and then but i'll never forget seeing her look like a normal human being. Not a fucking zombie.

Hello… how bout that ride in? I guess thats why they call it Sin City haha. You guys might not know this but I consider myself a bit of a loner. I tend to think of myself as a one man wolf pack. But when my sister brought Doug home, I knew he was one of my own. And my wolf pack, it grew by one. So there… there was two of us in the wolf pack. I was alone first in the pack and Doug joined in later. And six months ago, when Doug introduced me to you guys I thought “wait a second, could it be?” And now I know for sure, I just added two more guys to my wolf pack. Four of us wolves, running around the desert together in Las Vegas, looking for strippers and cocaine.

So it's been a while. Woo. New updates in life.. Courtney is moving in in two weeks. We almost got mugged in the fucking ghetto. Courtney and I went to boulevard to buy cigs and we got cornered by four black guys in a conveniance store behind bullet proof glass and the clerk with a kevlar vest on. What the fuck. Then I think my car is going to get stolen but good thing that didn't happen. So, all that for a pack of cloves. Definitely wasen't worth it. Things are pretty cool here the house is shapeing up and looking better. We still need a alot of furniture tho bt i'm so picky that it's hard to settle on sit.

I just got my new xbox fck yeaa. Finally Jason's finally red-ringed itself to death so it was up to me to take the plate. But yea. I love it. Spring and smmer is going to be great sitting on the porch smoking and watching the thunderstorms. Braves games... i'm loving it. I jsut wish it had the safety of the suburbs ahh.

Moe's is ok i guess. I almost got fired for beGing sick it was so laaame. But whatevs I think it'll be good and if it's not planet smoothie will give me a 7-3 job anyway so.. Don't want to sound cocky but I mean moe's was givin me shit for something so lame. I was sick and called ouut. Whatevsss

I'm glad to be having court move in tho, another girl in the house is great.. I think it's going to be the start of something fun and i'm looking forward to it. I've decided also after going to the plaza to see spatter... I want to do sci fi makeup effects. I think that's the job for me because face it... mircro is so amazing and awesome bt I have no room for failure in my life right now honestly. It's not taking the easy way ot but it's ensurance that i'm going to be financially stable plus doing something I want.

I've been on an oxybinge for the past three days. I'm so fucked up haha i'm just so relaxed and chilled and more easy going. It's nice. Seth is pacing around now and wants to go to bed so I better go. He's all antsy haha.

Because it's so cold. too cold.. suspiciously... cold. hmm...

well... i guess i'm gonna start using this a little more because when i write with pens it hurts my hands. carpal tunnel or premature arthritis! i'm excited! well.. i only told two people at work that i was going to atlanta.. one chick who i went to high school with and who i specifically told not to tell anyone.. and she told someone and it got back to my manager... and the owner... and it's just a lot of stres i really didn't need. we finished moving all the shit out of the apartment on monday and that's a huge stress off my back. it feels really good to have that door closed however my kitten had no where to go so i asked erin to keep him for me until we find a place to move. we've been finding abunch of cute houses in grant park
and i've been emailing the gm at doc green's so .. i'm really excited to open that door but i dont want to rush it. i just want to slowly transition into this. i'm so tired and exhausted of everything and trying to make everyone else happy i just need to make myself happy now.

i'm 22 and suposed to be enjoying myself to the fulllest. living down here is the opposite. down here it is all the people who didn't go anywhere after high school who are still here. it's not bad but i mean...there's nothing to do here! i can't go out and drink and dance at mjq... i can't go out for a drink somewhere that's my cup of tea. i dont think going to taco mac is all that exciting honestly... i want to go places... i feel so trapped here. i feel like though if i keep my shit together that i'll get to where i want to go. i'm starting to study so i can be ready to get into GSU... i dont want to set my goals way too high. but i really feel as this is what i wnat to do. i just dont want to be overwhelmed i mean there are people way smarter than me and i'm going into a field where there are going to be the smartest fucking kids in the world.. im more of a candid laid back person when it comes to microbiology haha epidemiology wll be fun and ill do it if i have to be an independent research scientist haha. oh wells... i'm excited

i've decided when we move into the house i'm going to record us everyday and see if we have any material to turn into a tv show haha... i think the ridiculous things that happen to us are defintely tv worthy... so that's another side project. i just cant wait to have the kitten back and wake up with him sleeping with us haha. the gerbil is kinda in this tiny cage right now so i need to get him a bigger one or he's going to go crazyy...

halloween is friday and i dont know what to do. part of me wants to go to a bar and get drunk but i think we're going to dress up as zombies and just slide around the streets as kids trick or treat and since it's friday i'll probably get trashed and do it just for lulz. im rambling idk what else to say. my mom had to use my car to take her and katie and her friend to kickboxing at la boxing so im kinda stuck here for like 30 more minutes. so boring. i didnt have cable for like months so i mean i dont really even know what's on tv anymore besides it's always sunny in philadelphia. the best show everrr.

fuck. i'm so bored. im going to go punch the punching bag. payce.

going back to atlanta. house hunting soon. got my job back at doc green's... i'm leaving moe's and i dunno how i feel because i really like that place. they actually treat me very well.... regardless... i really hate waking up at 8am 6 days a week and not having anymore days off than one because all i do on that day is errands and get shit done. umm...


been talking to josh allen recently when i'm not getting drunk on gin and juice and falling out of bunk beds and telling my boyfriend that i hate him over and over again because i'm an angry drunk. i have decided i really miss my best friend. that best friend who was there with me through all the awkward stages of life... the one that could finish my sentances.. the one who was my sidekick and vice versa ... i feel like we need each other but there has been some wrongdoing... all in immaturity however. i'm older and wiser and understand now.. i just wish i could talk to her one day... just all day and talk. i don't like grudges and there is no grudge here. so rachel if you ever ever read this by some strange chance i miss you like owen misses luke. there have been so many good times we've lost because of this and i refuse after almost two years to let this go buddy. whatevs... there is a right to be angry but if i truly mean anything to you i want to talk to you. without punches being thrown, without anything. you've always been there for me and unfortunately that whole thing didnt work out and i'm sorry but maybe it wasent destined to be. you were the only steady thing that had me going a lot throughout when we were younger. in ptc you have that one friend you have adventures with you know? in any case...

my aunt is coming from colorado on friday and i'm excited to hang out with the fam and drink and be cool. my mom's side of the family is always soo cool and i get anti depressants and possibly a painkiller or two :D!!

i saw pineapple express for the 10th time last time. i am so cool.

i am nervous about atlanta. very nervous. i'm going to try to apply at paul mitchell to do hair while i get my way through school. going to go to gsu in the next year or so and study microbiology. i found what i want to do. i have to go pack all my shit tomorrow at the apartment. i dont know where i'm going to put chi hopefully erin will house him til we find a house.

my head hurts. my stomach hurts. i need to sleep. i am so tired. i hate waking up so early without naps and falling asleep at 11 or 12. i am a true lame ass. i can't wait for a new routine.

is racist.

the pools closed due to aids.

Is teh shit. ANBDC was hardcore and I serously don't know what i'm going to do with myself since it's over now. Maybe i'll just watch Rock the Cradle and cringe. Maybe I will just play video games. Or maybe I just won't watch tv for a while.

maybe i'll go have a sandwich instead.

maybe i will go get ready for work and stop...

the ups and downs of good entertainment.

GOOD:

-futurama movie
-daft punk: interstella 55555
-superbad (summing up high school life in a nutshell for me)
-Halo 3
-Mass Effect
-Cowboy Bebop
-Weeds
-it's always sunny in philidelphia

BAD:

-desperate housewives will never be worth it
-call of duty will never pwn halo
-remaking movies that dont need to be remade
-myspace getting testy



whatevssssss.

anyway, how is everyone?

well, let's see. we just got done seeing a house here in peachtree city off of Hippocket and i'm really excited about it. I hope we get it, really. The guy was hard to read but i'm still nervous because it's a long shot, kinda. i just really want him to get back to us. Hopefully while i'm at work so i dont have to answer the call haha.But anyway... life's been good minus drama here and there. I hate planet smoothie because i work with a bunch of immature idiots. literally. and jason is acting a fool in thinking this chick he met like two weeks ago is "the one" and he bailed out of rooming with us so i'm pretty much just like fuck it.

i just dyed my hair b ack to mohagany, woo. such a weird change but it's for the better. there comes a time
when a platnium blonde feels trailor trashy with roots because i havent gotten my hair done IN FOUR M ONTHS OH NOES! money could be better spent. but anyway. the house is all im concerned about to be honest, ah.

i just wanted to update and say what's up. halo 3 is amazing. people fucking get on and play me damnit, im awesome and i love it.

tehk0br4duck. send me a msg.


other than that just hanging around and working. ithink ive got a sinus infection and i think i have carpal tunnnel!!

APPARENTLY IM NOT DEAD!!!!



i dont even know the last time i updated really, but oh well. im back in ptc, and have
beenf or like.... months. screw atlanta and fuck
working my life away 24/7, so, whateverrrrr..

im 21 now and that is amazing, helll yea, whenever i feell ike getttin crunk i do it.

and its nice to drink at restuarants, woo.

i work at planet smoothie and jersey mikes subs in ptc off of hwy 54 by WAL MAARTT


anddd everything seems good for now. we got a new puppy sophia, she's a fucking monster
and i dont know how i feel about that right now lolzzzzzzzz..


if youre ever on x box live, send me a message:

tehK0BR4duck.... zero for the 0.


umm, if youre gonna be at atlanta warped, lemme know im goin on wednesday wooo

gonna see family force 5 and tiger army, hell yea.

but besides that, whateverrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr



later n00bs.

Q: what's the last text message on your cell phone say ?:
A: check your car for my dui papers

Q: whose bed did you sleep in last night ?:
A: i passed otu on the floor

Q: what color shirt are you wearing ?:
A: brown

Q: Most recent movie that you watched ?:
A: i dont know

Q: Name one thing that you do everyday?:
A: nothing in particular

Q: What's the color of your bedroom walls?:
A: white

Q: how much cash do you have on you right now ?:
A : 400 dollars, 35 short of rent

Q: What is your favorite part of the chicken?
A: the beak

Q: What's your favorite sport?
A: snowboarding

Q: I can't wait till...?
A: this ends

Q: When was the last time you saw your mom?
A: right now

Q: Who got you to join myspace?
A: myself

Q: What did you have for dinner last night?
A: nothing, havent eaten in five days

Q: Is Tom on your friends list?
A: no

Q: Look to your left. What's there?
A: a plant

Q: Whats the last piece of clothing you borrowed from someone?
A: erin's peace shirt

Q: What website(s) do you visit the most during the day?
A: myspace

Q: Do you have plants in your room?
A: uh, a dead flower my ex boyfriend gave me

Q: Does anything hurt on your body right now?
A: stomach

Q: What city was your last taxicab ride in?
A: never

Q: Do you own a picture phone?
A: yes

Q: Recent time you were really upset?
A: yea, i have a lot of sh it to deal with

Q: Would you have a problem if your friend went after your ex boyfriend/girlfriend ?
A: yea, i would and it's happened

Q: Have you ever been in love?
A: yea. once.

_______Last________
1. Person you saw: erin and mom
2. Talk on the phone with: joey
3. Hugged: i dont know
4. IM: bobby
5. Song you listened to: uh, jefferson airplane?

_______Today________
1. What are you doing now: lying here
2. What are you doing tonight: being depressed
3. What did you eat for lunch: nothing
4. Was today a good day: no

________Tomorrow___________
1. Is: wednesday
2. Got plans? no
3. Goal: not ruin my life
4. Dislikes about tomorrow: waking up alone
5. Do you have work: yes

________Currently_________
1. In love with someone: yes
2. Like someone: yes
3. Have a boyfriend/girlfriend: no
4. Does someone like you?: hah
5. Missing someone? i shouldnt but yea
6. Mood: upset





here i am back in peachtree city, for three days going now. seth bailed on me. he wants to be
with jenny because apparently i don't mean anything anymore. we shared a life together and
then he just bailed on me and never even called me lik ehe said he would. figures, though.
it always figures. it's funny because a lot of people were caught off guard, but then
a f ew werent. i was in between. i saw it coming because i had known for a while and heard
stuff from when we got back together last time. and jenny was there. he's always had a thing
for her and so, he's acting on it, but he's also fucking up my life in some way.
havent eaten in five days. good, i'll get skinny again. i can't hang out with one
of my good friends because of this. i just don't know. i'm upset and depressed but im
staying above the water. which is good in a way but... i got wasted last nite and man i felt
sickkkk. i drank half a 22... of smirnoff ice. and ended up slurring my speech and i left
with a weird hat on my head and ended up passing out on the floor and watching the ending
of inuyasha and then some of freakin futurama.

the weather is dreary, my mood is weary. i don't know what i want. but this has got me thinking.
i've been trying to find some guys to kinda make me feel worth the while you know? everyone
always tells me i can do better, im so pretty i can do way better and get someone who cares
about me. but the thing is... what jason told me in this situation.. sometimes what you want
isn't what you need. or sometimes what you need isn't what you want, so.... think about that.

what if i like this fucked up relationship?

that, in itself, is fucked up. and i know this and i know everyone thinks im dumb.

but i can't throw everything away because of this. i was supposed to be at work today and
i even promised and i feel like a peice of shit but really, what can i do? i dont' want to be
there when all i think about is seth and how my heart genuinely hurts. it just HURTS.
there's like a longing, i wish i could have him come up behind me and hug me and squeeze
me like he used to do and whistle and then look over at me and give me kissy faces. then
we'd go home and he'd get in his wiener pants and i'd get in my pjs and we'd munch
and play halo and burnout. now, i go to work alone. i come home alone in an empty city.
i come home to an empty room. there's no love there. there's no warmness. there's nothing.
it's just emptiness. plain and utter emptiness. i can't listen to some songs because
i tear up but im just so dehydrated that i can't even cry anymore, which i guess
is good. i'm trying to surround myself with friends to get over this and i'm trying to be
stronger and show people i can do this again. but in the back of my h ead i feel like a
idiot.


FOUR OF YOUR FAVORITE DAYS THAT WILL BE IN 2006: (that were)
1. june 18th
2. may 13th
3. september 8th
4. november 23rd

FOUR THINGS THAT YOU HAVE IN YOUR ROOM:
1. tv
2. couch
3. duckss
4. guitar


FOUR CITIES YOU'VE LIVED IN:
1. atlanta, ga
2. peachtree city, ga
3. columbus, ga
4. barnesville, ga

FOUR THINGS ON TV YOU WATCH:
1. family guy
2. tom goes to the mayor
3. aqua teen
4. stand up comedy

FOUR THINGS YOU DO EVERYDAY:
1. dance
2. myspace
3. play halo
4. listen to music

FOUR WEBSITES YOU VISIT DAILY:
1. myspace
2. livejournal
3. idk
4. g4

FOUR OF YOUR ALL-TIME FAVORITE RESTAURANTS:
1. taco bell
2. elmyr
3. l5pizza
4. olive garden

FOUR OF YOUR FAVORITE FOODS:
1. pizza
2. chalupas
3. chinese food
4. olive garden

FOUR SCHOOLS YOU'VE ATTENDED
1. booth middle
2. mcintosh
3. fayco evening school
4. uhhh um.. mcnair elementary

FOUR PLACES I'D RATHER BE RIGHT NOW:
1. with someone
2. outside in the sunshine
3. playing halo
4. playing xbox in general with someone.. =[


ugh, welll. let me not depress everyone else. i guess. but let's just mark this day.
fuck it all man. fuck. why can't it be sunshine. why can't it be nice and spring
why do i have to spend this by myself? fucking a, fucking a seth. god damnit.

Valentine's day doesnt have to be that flashy. we bundled up after work, headed on our way to the cute hole-in-the-wall little five pizza and ordered what we normally do on special occasions where we can afford. then, we sit and talk and laugh and have just each other to keep company. then, after that we walk around the block to browse shop around and people look where we sat down on the couch and looked through the 200 page book of "so cute it'll make you die" where it had themed pictures of cute animals, but we particularly liked the bunnies and rodents and puppies. then, we picked out our own custom incense. 30 for 4 dollars. not a bad date. then we came home, played halo and alltogether, i had a fun time. it was a special and unique day.

then, two days later. i got the flu.

so, i tried finding my old written journal that had my adventures over the summer
in it and i can't find it anywhere. if you find it please return it to me
asap. i miss it. mean while im going ot buy another one tomrw with choco cat on it haha.
that and maybe get my lip peirced. i am so close, i just need to make sure that
it's allowed at doc green's because id on't want to lose my job, duh.

uhhh, all is well. payday is tomorrow, hot damn.

it's weird to think i've actually live through 20 christmas eve's, haha. i don't know i don't think people think of things that well but ohhh well.... i dropped seth off at work cause he was working today whcih suckksss for me because i won't get to see him til like 6, then we're driving down to ptc to see his family then going to spend the night at my house (adult swim!!!) and wake up and do christmas there. i got all of seth's presents FINALLY as of like 10 minutes ago. whew, big sweat off my backkk thank god.i think he'll like 'em. i hope so at least. buttttt yeap. now i just need to entertain myself for like six more hours, belghhh. i got everything cleaned already, stuff ready to go for laundry.. i could clean the car out which i really need to do, but you know, i just don't feel like getting up. especially when i'm in the most comfortable clothes known to man aka fleece pj pants and big sweatshirt, hell yessssss.

today, i woke up at like 6 in the morning where it's like still dark outside but it feels like morning you know? that good kinda "ive got a few more hours to sleep" feeling you had when you were in school? i love that feeling, but anyway, i looked over at seth and i was like, man. this is a great way to wake up every single day next to him and even better to go to sleep with him. it's weird, we've like started out on this independent journey and look how far we've come? from ptc bums to this. people can talk their shit, say that "it's about time" because im 20, but you know what? it takes motivation. and i think my motivation is seth. just wanting to be with him and have our own life and be together, it's a damn good feeling. it's good to know that we control what we do and only answer to each other. we even work together, i'm so happy with my life right now that i can't help but smile all the time and just look at how far we've both come. it makes me incredibly happy and proud. the fact that we're a team is so awesome to me. i wouldnt want to be with anyone else in this world.

he's just absolutely perfect for me. i've completely found my soulmate and i'm okay with that. sometimes, i stop and think on the fact that i do want to be with him forever. i want to have a life with him and just grow old together wtih him. and i think that would be such a perfect thing because he's the first guy ive ever loved and ever been with, how cool would that be? i end up with my first love but you know what? as crazy as it sounds, it happens and i wonder if im one of those people? i hope i am because i do not want to spend my life with anyone else. he's always going to be the only one i'm going to love. i hope this never ever ends. i do want to spend my life with him one day. we're too perfect for each other.

ahhhh, im getting gay but honestly that is how i feel. i mean, the first time i ever saw him i just knew there was something about him. and i tried my best to get him and got him, then lost him and i felt like i wanted to die. the only thing i wanted was to be his again and when that happened, you know, the days just got better and better and slowly i just started seeing myself with him forever. i didnt believe in love at first site at all, but i do now because when i first saw him i did fall in love, as weird as that sounds, i know. and ever since i saw him in march, i've been in love with him ever since. i didn't realize it til june, didn't say it til august, didn't hear it back til september, but you know what? it's a slow process and i'm not going to rush anything. i just want to be wth him forever, that's all i want.

i used to wish at 11:11 that he'd like me, then that he'd love me. it's funnny how it goes.

but whatever, it's a great thing. i love him so much no matter how dorky or awkward he is, he's mine and once we're together people can see how welll we compliment each other. it just works and feels right. love is an amazing thing.

and today is christmas eve and im going to get some cereal and watch some tv.

payce

So, for the second time last night i tried acid and ive decided that i will not do acid ever again and nothing will ever persuade me otherwise. why? well, the first time about two weeks ago i took it in a sugarcube dosage. at first, i had a bad trip for maybe an hour but then it was amazing and fun and i could handle it and i was able to sleep. however, this time i took one and a half on a paper blotter and jesus christ, i thought i had died many times last night. i burst out into tears for like ten minutes, smeared my make up everywhere. then laughed uncontrollably. i shivered most the night and the rooms were all melting into one. i was scared and paranoid and i tried to delve myself into mario but alas, nothing. i freaked out when seth wouldnt get off the computer and almost burst into tears again. t hen we walked to cvs and whcih i dont remember that walk at all because i was clinging to seth's arm the whole time. i felt like i was floating.

i swear to god i had like five out of body experiances and thought i was going to die. i just wasent in the right mindset at all and i felt like i couldnt breathe or anything. it got better after a while but it was just so uncomfortable, i dont think its something im going to do again. i'll stick with my potsmoking and occasionally might roll, but pretty much, all other drugs can stay outta my life because im not down. and im even scared to try shrooms now. i had feeling out of control. id much rather just get really high and enjoy it for a few hours tili pass out. not where i lie in bed for hours, watching my boyfriend sleep and trying to rid my mind of all the crosses and demons that were floating around, ughhhh.

scary. and at least with rolling i can cuddle and feel wanted and elated. dude, when youre on acid, you either feel like no one wants you or something it's weird. forget that, no more.

sighhh.

It's funny looking back now knowing what i do. i mean
it's all in the past, right? but still... it's funny thinking that
for a few months everything was fine but really it never was.
i'm not going to dwell on it i'm just thinking back on this summer.
it really wasen't as great as i had made it out to be. for the first month or so, yea. but then afterwards, it kinda was all downhill
and i was fooling myself. weird, right? because now look at me.

there are no doubts or second guesses. i just wish that
i haden't blindly been so naive, you know? that's all.

everything is great now, and has been since september.

but, the beginning of summer was drastically different than the
ending of summer, that's for damn sure. i guess that's all i really
have to say about that. it just makes me think. it's kind of weird
too. because in the beginning of summer or even in spring it was
weird to know someone but not think they were capable of
the things that did happen. even now it's pretty unrealistic.
but even though i know they are true, it's still incredibly weird
to think that hey, that's different. but, in the end. i'm happy
and boys will be boys, which is all i have to say.

still. man, it's just so damn weird to see someone in a different way, hah.


oh well. you can't chose who you love and i'm sure as hell not
perfect. (im close, though. hahaha)

at least these past few months since september have been good.
i guess that's all the reassurance i need.

eh.

i hate secrets. i hate secrets. i hate it all. ive upset myself and
the bad thing is that he's not here to help me chill out. i'm such a douchebag sometimes and i don't understand why im always so suspicious and creepy and paranoid. i wish it could stop. i guess
this serves me right. i have to reassure myself but, basically the only person who can reassure me right now is seth and he's not here.
i just hate how other girls have no respect for someone else's signifcant other. it upsets me. i just wish that i could be completely without worries you know? but i have to face the fact of the matter - he did basically cheat on me and treat me like shit behind my back. i should've believed others back then, i really have. i just hate feeling stupid and recalling back those days. it sucks. it's like, can i really trust him? can I trust someone who cheated on me when i was in college....? i don't understand. i just want to talk to him right now and try to get over these old feelings coming back to me you know? everything is fine now, should i bring up old shit? probably not. but goddamnit i feel like shit and i want reassurance. i want to know that he genuinely does care about me and wouldn't hurt me again. i'm just so scared of getting hurt again and right now im being completely vulnerable. ugh.

seth, ugh. i wish you'd get off work right now.

=[

seth got a job. working at doc green's making salads on ponce, right by fellinis.
i am still jobless however, sux0rz, ah. pretty much we're living at ryan and rachel's which is n ow ryan, rachel anna and seth's. we'll be able to move in soon though tomorrow we're going
down to ptc to get some shit and b ring it back up here. pretttty neaaat.

and we have a cat, destrukt0r

so yup. seth and i are pretty much up here in atlanta with rachel and ryan trying to job hunt so we can move up here asap. basically we're going to be sharing a house and splitting all the rent. it's pretty exciting, hah. im ready to be independent and self-liberated, hell yeah. we'd get seth's big bed and a high definition huge ass tv, not bad.

meanwhile, i kinda hit the side of a gas station pole with the car and it dented it a litte... dunno what im going to do about that, hah.

joey came back to visit for a few days and it was fun. really miss hanging with joey and such, but it's good he's down there in hamilton getting stuff done. hopefully if things work out he'll come up here and mlive with his friend danny and so we'll all be in atlanta hah, awesome, right?

we gotta drive back down to ptc tomorrow to drop katie off at school then go to seth's probo meeting. then we'll come back up here for the job fair and try to find a job. i mean i think things are going to work out pretty much and im really excited.

i think we're going to be able to move in here dec. 1st or around that time while we search for a house. things are looking up, i dunno man.

anyway, im off to find something to do. find some chocolate to eat hah.

<3 anna

yup.

last day smoking. for real this time. i need to get sober for court in jan and plus i've been thinking... i really want to just be sober and have a job. i think it owuld make things so much easier and it would fill my days up. so like.. i could work and then come home and chill with my friends for the rest of the day doing something fun and actually like... planned and stuff. it would be somuch more fun.


christmas is coming up. im so excited. i hope it's amaazzzzzing.

seth and i have basically beeen together for like six months. pretty cool. i mean im
happy. hope he is too.

i need halloowweeen candy damnit.

i didnt get any =[


neways, happy halloweeen